Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Stressed to the max

This is a stress rant. I’m having one of those days were my stomach is doing flip-flops and I think I’m going to have a heart attack due to stress pain (I’m anxious and a hypochondriac- I don’t mix well with extreme stress).

Money is stressing me out. I’m not about to take residence at 1831 Cardboard box or anything, but I’m wondering how it’s ever going to be possible for me to get ahead. I have a good job, that pays relatively well, yet it still seems like debt or even save mountain is insurmountable. If someone making as much as I do can’t even get ahead, is there any hope for anyone in their mid-twenties anymore?

I can barely make ends meet and it’s just me and two kitties. I can’t even imagine throwing a little family into this mix. I was thinking about getting a second job, one or two nights a week. However, I make too much already (HA! According to the government) and most of my side job income would probably just go towards the government (taxes).

Work is also stressing me out. If things don’t die down, I might just crawl under my bed, plug my ears and say, “lalalala I’m not going anymore and I’m not going to pay my bills either.” Too bad that will only make things worse.

I have a sh*tload of evaluations on my plate right now. Tis’ the season of special education assessment referrals. Everyone that we’ve been following needs to be tested now (and in sixty days damnit). I am at one school, two days a week. The team has thrown 9 new assessments on me in the past few days. Apparently I don’t actually need to service my children with counseling; I’m going to have my head in a testing kit. My other two day a week school has slapped on an additional 6, and my one day a week school has a total of 4 up and going. I might just lose my mind. It probably doesn’t sound like that much to you, but when you’re in meetings 15 out of 40 hours a week and have to give 19, 2 hour long assessments and write 19, 10 page psychological evaluations, you’ll see that my life kinda sucks right now.

Anyone have any fun and exciting news, tips or ideas to help me get through this month?

1 comment:

A.D. said...

So sorry you are stressed! I recommend drinking...a lot. Seriously, when I get super stressed I try to think of how many worse things are going on in the world, and how even though things aren't always going well with money/job/life, I have a pretty decent life compared to many. If that doesn't help, there's always cheap wine and happy hour specials. Hope things get better!